[ Clary laughed and leaned up to press her lips against his again, stomach fluttering happily. ]
Simon, that's a horrible answer.
[ She let go of him to reach up and put her hands around his cheeks, pulling him in and kissing him again. She knew she shouldn't be egging on his being irresponsible, but also--
They were back here. And it was still new and exciting and... ]
But I'm glad I'm here too. I didn't think this morning I'd be here in the middle of the night.
I mean I'm still gonna go I just-- [ he tried to say between kisses. ] don't want you to leave.
[ He had been trying to keep up with his grades and was doing better, he was sure he'd get caught up in due time if he sat down and studied but tonight that was out of the question. ]
I mean, I was hoping you did.
[ was that too presumptuous of him?
He lowered his arms to circle Clary's waist and pulled her closer to him.
You better! [ She giggled against him, though, knowing herself to be too far gone to back away now. How could she? This was where she'd been dying to be for months now. ] I was gonna stay with Luke tonight--but...
[ She felt her face turning hot and she rested her hands on Simon's chest, looking up at him. ]
I don't want to leave. Just--we have to make some time to talk. Like--tomorrow! After class? Things got kind of--elevated at the Institute. Which is my fault, really but--I just don't want you to be without full knowledge.
[ Which had been part of their downfall last time. She tugged the lapels of his flannel gently and looked up at him uncertainly. ]
[ Simon pulled away to look at Clary in the eye, if things weren't okay wouldn't it be better to talk about it now? He could imagine Jace couldn't have possibly taken the news very well. ]
I'm sure Luke has to wake up mad early anyway.
[ all he wanted was to be with Clary right now. He still had like seven hours before he had to wake up for school (haha); they could make time to talk now. ]
Okay, now I have to know. What happened at the institute?
I mean--it really can wait, it's not--there's just some context you're missing--
[ Clary winced. She knew it was unfair to bring it up in the first place and not talk about it--but there was a lot that had happened between her and Jace since Simon had broken up with her.
There was one big thing Simon didn't know.
It complicated a lot. Jace, for all that he was still the same Jace that loved Clary, was also a different Jace since he'd come back to life.
She sighed and brushed her fingers over Simon's face. ]
I just... expected Jace to be mad, but I didn't expect him to be so-- I don't know. I mean-- I'm fine, he didn't do anything to me.
I'm... I think something I did is making him--unpredictable.
[ Simon expected many things, like Jace hating him forever and maybe not speaking to Clary for a while. What he didn't expect was Jace to actually turn aggressive which is what Simon was afraid might have happened.]
What do you mean? What did he do, Clary?
[ it didn't sound like Jace at all, really. He was usually too cool headed for that kind of behavior. But Simon couldn't say he knew the guy as well as Clary did.
He brushed her hair away from her face, waiting for her answer.]
Don't freak--he didn't hurt me. It wasn't--that bad.
[ But he had lashed out, which left both of them alarmed. If there was one thing she knew about Jace, her Jace, it was that he'd never hurt her.
She couldn't try to find out where his head was at now--it was too late. Jace wouldn't want to talk to her now--and if he did, he certainly wouldn't want to talk about what was going on for him. She wasn't even sure what he'd say. ]
Simon--something happened to him back at Lake Lyn. I--I mean...
[ She took a deep breath and reached up, pressing Simon's hand against her cheek. ]
[ Simon stood still, the first reaction that came to him was laughter-- there was no way Jace had died because by the time they were back he looked completely fine, a little distant if anything, which Simon assumed normal because of what they'd been through.
But now, well, Clary would never lie to him and she wouldn't joke about something like that. There was no choice for Simon but to take her word and he didn't really need a choice, he had come back from the dead too, hadn't he?
He looks at Clary and it's not possible to hide his concern.]
He's alive now--
[ unless Jace had suddenly become a downworlder, this was the only thing Simon could think of.]
[ Clary waited for the realization to hit Simon and bit her lip when she saw the realization dawn on his face. She nodded and did her best to push down the wave of defensiveness that rose up in her--though it was hard to fight. ]
The mortal instruments were right there--Raziel was right there--I didn't know what else to do, I--
[ She stopped. No excuses. This was the second time she'd brought someone back without their consent--this was the second time it had had unforeseen consequences.
She wanted to be with Simon--that meant Simon needed to know the full extent of Jace's ties to Clary. And he needed to know that Jace wasn't in complete control of himself. ]
I think something went wrong. He just--seems out of control sometimes? I think it's important that you know... that. And what I did.
[ Simon was, obviously, speechless. He didn't know what to make of it all. First of all the fact that Clary had not only killed Valentine but had seen Jace die made him furious-- not that he could do anything about that anger now that Valentine was gone. But he couldn't compute so many things happening that night while he was basically doing nothing.
He held Clary's shoulders steady, trying to sound as calm as possible.]
Clary-- that doesn't sound safe. What is he doing, exactly? did he try to hurt anyone? is he okay?
[ the problem was that Simon didn't know a single thing about angels or the mortal instruments, he couldn't really study them now either. how was he supposed to find out what was wrong with Jace? How was he going to help Clary?]
[ Clary squeezed Simon's wrists reassuringly and shook her head. Truthfully, she didn't know what the full extent of the danger was--but if Simon knew there was a level threat, that was enough for Clary to keep him safe from any potential fallout. ]
He's okay. Things almost got out of hand for a second, but he took space.
[ She looked up at him seriously for a second, squeezing his wrists again. ]
If anything happens, I'll keep you safe. I just didn't want you to be unaware.
[ Simon didn't want to freak Clary out-- but it was hard to keep his cool because, he couldn't be with her always and because her and Jace shared a living space. He wasn't scared for her life per se but he knew that whatever was going on was enough for Clary to become protective of him. ]
Who's going to protect you? I really don't want you to get hurt Clary-- there must be something we can do.
[ right? maybe they could research it together, anything that didn't involve the Clave getting in the middle of things. Clary had had enough of a hard time with them already.
he leaned forward and kissed the top of her head.]
[ Clary leaned into Simon, winding her arms around his middle. It was always a relief to get something off her chest with Simon--even more so if he wasn't upset. He would have been in his right to be; Clary had made a very literally life changing decision for another person out of, well, fear of being without that person. It had been hard for Simon to swallow then, even if he had come to terms with it now. ]
I don't need to be protected. I'm just glad I'm here with you. I'm glad you're not upset.
[ She leaned up and kissed his cheek, then leaned her face against him. ]
I don't know what to do. But I know you'll help me figure out the right thing.
I know you don't need to, but we're supposed to have each other's backs right?
[ it was just upsetting to think that Clary would try to burden all of this by herself. but it seemed that at the very least she was willing to accept Simon's help. He'd have to figure out a way to investigate this without raising any suspicion... but he had a few ideas.
he leaned his head against Clary's and sighed. At least, for now, things seemed to be under control. ]
You know I'll do anything to help. I love you, Fray.
[ Clary nodded against Simon and squeezed him closer to her. She didn't have words for the gratitude she felt for him in that moment--he was right. They were supposed to have each other's backs, through thick and thin. Especially now. ]
I love you too, Simon. I'd do anything for you.
[ She pulled back enough to lean up on her toes and brushed her lips against his. ]
Thanks for always reminding me we're a team. I need you.
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Date: 2017-10-20 03:46 am (UTC)Simon, that's a horrible answer.
[ She let go of him to reach up and put her hands around his cheeks, pulling him in and kissing him again. She knew she shouldn't be egging on his being irresponsible, but also--
They were back here. And it was still new and exciting and... ]
But I'm glad I'm here too.
I didn't think this morning I'd be here in the middle of the night.
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Date: 2017-10-20 04:03 am (UTC)[ He had been trying to keep up with his grades and was doing better, he was sure he'd get caught up in due time if he sat down and studied but tonight that was out of the question. ]
I mean, I was hoping you did.
[ was that too presumptuous of him?
He lowered his arms to circle Clary's waist and pulled her closer to him.
Eh, he could study tomorrow.]
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Date: 2017-10-20 04:20 am (UTC)[ She felt her face turning hot and she rested her hands on Simon's chest, looking up at him. ]
I don't want to leave. Just--we have to make some time to talk. Like--tomorrow! After class? Things got kind of--elevated at the Institute. Which is my fault, really but--I just don't want you to be without full knowledge.
[ Which had been part of their downfall last time. She tugged the lapels of his flannel gently and looked up at him uncertainly. ]
Does that sound okay?
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Date: 2017-10-20 11:53 am (UTC)I'm sure Luke has to wake up mad early anyway.
[ all he wanted was to be with Clary right now. He still had like seven hours before he had to wake up for school (haha); they could make time to talk now. ]
Okay, now I have to know. What happened at the institute?
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Date: 2017-10-20 12:24 pm (UTC)[ Clary winced. She knew it was unfair to bring it up in the first place and not talk about it--but there was a lot that had happened between her and Jace since Simon had broken up with her.
There was one big thing Simon didn't know.
It complicated a lot. Jace, for all that he was still the same Jace that loved Clary, was also a different Jace since he'd come back to life.
She sighed and brushed her fingers over Simon's face. ]
I just... expected Jace to be mad, but I didn't expect him to be so-- I don't know. I mean-- I'm fine, he didn't do anything to me.
I'm... I think something I did is making him--unpredictable.
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Date: 2017-10-20 02:32 pm (UTC)What do you mean? What did he do, Clary?
[ it didn't sound like Jace at all, really. He was usually too cool headed for that kind of behavior. But Simon couldn't say he knew the guy as well as Clary did.
He brushed her hair away from her face, waiting for her answer.]
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Date: 2017-10-20 03:04 pm (UTC)[ But he had lashed out, which left both of them alarmed. If there was one thing she knew about Jace, her Jace, it was that he'd never hurt her.
She couldn't try to find out where his head was at now--it was too late. Jace wouldn't want to talk to her now--and if he did, he certainly wouldn't want to talk about what was going on for him. She wasn't even sure what he'd say. ]
Simon--something happened to him back at Lake Lyn. I--I mean...
[ She took a deep breath and reached up, pressing Simon's hand against her cheek. ]
I mean, he died. Valentine killed him.
*usher voice* Dont play with me man
Date: 2017-10-20 09:48 pm (UTC)But now, well, Clary would never lie to him and she wouldn't joke about something like that. There was no choice for Simon but to take her word and he didn't really need a choice, he had come back from the dead too, hadn't he?
He looks at Clary and it's not possible to hide his concern.]
He's alive now--
[ unless Jace had suddenly become a downworlder, this was the only thing Simon could think of.]
It was the angel, wasn't it?
got a secret can ya keep it swear this one you'll save
Date: 2017-10-21 01:03 am (UTC)The mortal instruments were right there--Raziel was right there--I didn't know what else to do, I--
[ She stopped. No excuses. This was the second time she'd brought someone back without their consent--this was the second time it had had unforeseen consequences.
She wanted to be with Simon--that meant Simon needed to know the full extent of Jace's ties to Clary. And he needed to know that Jace wasn't in complete control of himself. ]
I think something went wrong. He just--seems out of control sometimes? I think it's important that you know... that. And what I did.
*the office clip* NO GOD PLEASE NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOO
Date: 2017-10-21 01:31 am (UTC)He held Clary's shoulders steady, trying to sound as calm as possible.]
Clary-- that doesn't sound safe. What is he doing, exactly? did he try to hurt anyone? is he okay?
[ the problem was that Simon didn't know a single thing about angels or the mortal instruments, he couldn't really study them now either. how was he supposed to find out what was wrong with Jace? How was he going to help Clary?]
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Date: 2017-10-21 01:44 am (UTC)He's okay. Things almost got out of hand for a second, but he took space.
[ She looked up at him seriously for a second, squeezing his wrists again. ]
If anything happens, I'll keep you safe. I just didn't want you to be unaware.
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Date: 2017-10-21 01:52 am (UTC)Who's going to protect you? I really don't want you to get hurt Clary-- there must be something we can do.
[ right? maybe they could research it together, anything that didn't involve the Clave getting in the middle of things. Clary had had enough of a hard time with them already.
he leaned forward and kissed the top of her head.]
I want to help you.
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Date: 2017-10-21 02:16 am (UTC)I don't need to be protected. I'm just glad I'm here with you. I'm glad you're not upset.
[ She leaned up and kissed his cheek, then leaned her face against him. ]
I don't know what to do. But I know you'll help me figure out the right thing.
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Date: 2017-10-21 02:55 am (UTC)[ it was just upsetting to think that Clary would try to burden all of this by herself. but it seemed that at the very least she was willing to accept Simon's help. He'd have to figure out a way to investigate this without raising any suspicion... but he had a few ideas.
he leaned his head against Clary's and sighed. At least, for now, things seemed to be under control. ]
You know I'll do anything to help. I love you, Fray.
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Date: 2017-10-21 03:17 am (UTC)I love you too, Simon. I'd do anything for you.
[ She pulled back enough to lean up on her toes and brushed her lips against his. ]
Thanks for always reminding me we're a team. I need you.
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Date: 2017-10-21 03:46 am (UTC)[ he leaned in and kissed her fully on the lips, holding her by the waist and pressing her against him. ]
Just-- don't think about it for now, okay? We'll figure something out. Promise.